When I was young, I
Watch behind the curtains
As men walked up and down the street. Wino men, old men.
Young men sharp as mustard.
them. Men are always
They knew I was there. Fifteen
Years old and starving for them.
window, they would pause,
Their shoulders high like the
Breasts of a young girl,
Jacket tails slapping over
One day they hold you in the
Palms of their hands, gentle, as if you
Were the last raw egg in
the world. Then
They tighten up. Just a little. The
First squeeze is nice. A quick hug.
Soft into your defenselessness.
More. The hurt begins. Wrench out a
Smile that slides around the fear. When the
mind pops, exploding fiercely, briefly,
Like the head of a kitchen match. Shattered.
It is your juice
That runs down
their legs. Staining their shoes.
When the earth rights itself again,
And taste tries to return to the tongue,
body has slammed shut. Forever.
No keys exist.
Then the window draws full upon
Your mind. There, just beyond
sway of curtains, men walk.
But this time, I will simply
Stand and watch.