Rape is "the sucking out"
of a vital part of ones' spirit...
Directly linked to the soul.
Once it is done, it can never be undone.
It leaves the survivor feeling somewhat frightened...
hypervigilant... insignificant...
as if their body does not belong to them...
as if they have no choice in making decisions
about their body and their health,
and boundaries surrounding every single choice
that's made in life often remain questionable.
But a form of recovery is possible.
Lots of support from others who have "been
there"
has helped to validate many certain "lost
souls"...
But that's just my opinion.
I also wanted to add that brutal rape, child rape,
as well as the sexual victimization of adults...
patterns established by such "involvement"
can contribute to the the "total" emotional/mental
health of the victim/survivor.
I have found that these "patterns"
generally follow the subject
into self-destructive behavior.
Insanity: "repeating the same behavior,
expecting different results".
Some certain persons tend to become "hard-wired"
into believing that the only means of finding comfort
is through repeating a sort of "self fulfilling prophecy"
in which failed attempts to regain
that sense of personal power over ones body/self
can only be attained by more attempts
to regain control of ones' boundaries...
to FEEL genuine love!
Ironically, "that hole in the soul that the wind blows through"
only grows more hollow/loveless/despicable
to the point of a total lack of self regard.
Without recognition of certain personal "patterns"
and the sense of being so inferior
that there is no place safe on this planet,
suicide tends to run rampant... sometimes quickly...
more often it seems very slowly and painfully...
running the gamut of a variety of addictions
as attempts to "numb the pain"...
snuffing out the "demons" that tend to haunt
many survivors of rape.
But again, that's just my opinion.
